Wow. I can't believe it's taken me this long - more than a year - to realize I am in a 'trial'. Bill's absence after our first year of marriage is one big fat trial - to say the least. It's a test, it's a challenge, it's got good and bad wrapped all up in it. But the thing that was made most evident to me in the last week is that it is ALL on purpose.
I've spent more than a year resisting the opportunity to learn from this experience. I've tried to deny I had anything to learn. My objective was only to tuck my head and get through it. It would be over before I knew it. THAT was the test - existing. However, the true test is coming out a better person on the other side.
I now know..I have A LOT to learn to benefit from this experience the way it was planned for me to.
This revelation is such a relief. We can't do everything by ourselves and when we don't know...what we don't know...it's comforting to know He does.
I'm thankful for this awareness and will continue to go through this 'trial' as the best student I can be.
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