The Hangover...

And oh boy, do I WISH I was referring to the movie?! We've all been here...you know the feeling. I had a great girl friend in town this weekend, puppies were overnighting at daycare, and Gasparilla festivities were in full force..despite the rain. So basically, we started at 10am with bloody marys at breakfast and were still enjoying beverages when the sun went down. I share this day with all of you, very candidly, to beg the question I've asked myself SO many times...and especially lately....why do we insist that it's a good idea at the time when we know we're going to pay for it for at least the next two days (that's right, recovery time has increased significantly)!

But seriously...not to get all philosophical here, but whether it be a parade and a gathering of friends or its a low key night at dinner with red wine. Why do we drink alcohol? Here are my thoughts...my candid, completely uncensored, very vulnerable thoughts.

Alcohol is an escape. When you're uptight..it makes you forget how uptight you are. When you're stressed, it relaxes your neck muscles. When you're in a crowd of people and enjoy EVERYONE you're with, but still miss the one who is not there. Or when conversation is a challenge...the glass of wine, makes it easier. Please don't misunderstand - these are not all CONSCIOUS reasons I indulge in an adult beverage; it's all the reasons I speculate that I do...because why else would you? Consciously, it just doesn't make sense.

On top of it, the next day is ruined. It's ruined physically and in some cases emotionally. The ironic thing of having a glass of wine at all - if in fact it is to forget for a moment the responsibilities you have or the weight on your brain - the next day, it's all still there AND magnified times ten. And in my case, I miss him more the day after...I miss him SO much more.

Bill isn't drinking alcohol for the entire year he's there...it's not available...it's not his choice, but think of how 'clean' he'll be when he returns. I think of it. I think of it a lot.